2 Years Ago Today…I Met My Son…My Thanksgiving Post
Today I am Thankful for Dae Seok’s (Losiah’s) mother.
I wrote this a year ago on the ever of Losiah’s birthday…
I wonder if she was alone. Last year. Tonight. Was she alone? Right now. Tonight. Is she alone? Was she surrounded by family? Was she still debating life as a single mother in a land where they do not exist? Was her heart already broken? Was she in a hospital? Was she in lots of pain? Did someone drive her to the hospital? Did she spend much time with Dae-Seok? Did she get to feel him? Did she get to feed him? Did she change his diaper? How much did she cry? Is she crying right now? Did she want to change her mind? Did she change her mind? Does she wish she changed her mind?
These are the things running through my dome right now. As I sit here typing, Losiah is down the hall sleeping, dreaming of only God knows what. Probably about the dress his sisters put him in tonight. But me? I can only think of her. Of a mother that I will never know. Of a woman who made a decision that has forever changed the core of my existence. And hers. She will never hear the depths to which the laughter rises out of Sohaila when Losiah chases her. She will never see the care gleaming from Seanna’s eyes as she sprints across the room to catch him before he falls. She will never know the breath of life she has breathed into my family to make it complete, by making a choice to make her life incomplete.
A year ago tonight, I blogged this…”If I haven’t said it in a while. My wife is the most selfless person I know.” And that is true.
But little did I know, across thousands of miles of earth and ocean, was another selfless soul getting ready to sacrifice a bond that I will never understand…
For this soul of a calloused, hollow man.
Los
2 Years ago today, alone with my wife in Seoul Korea, we had the most amazing Thanksgiving Day ever.
If you are an impatient Ragamuffin skip to 11:44 in the video to see us meet Losiah for the first time.
But trust me, you will miss a great fight.
Be thankful.
Los
RAIN IT DOWN
Los, the video says its no longer available?
We're sorry, this video is no longer available.
Hmmm.
It is playing here.
OH!!!
I know why
HAng tight
it says video is no longer available – tons probably watched it and youtube took it out?
Anyway, the post is moving. Thank you for remembering Losiah's mothers and for your thankfulness.
OK. Refresh your browsers and try it again!!!
FIghts @ 7 mins if u wanna see it
ha! i remember that fight. we made one of our own today over stupid stuff. but i'm still mad. great blog today…
Carlos, I love the last song on the video… is that YOU?
Ah, dude…that is awesome! Thanks for sharing – Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family!!!
Awesome. What great memories.
Thanks for making me cry on Thanksgiving. Seriously, awesome of you to share that. It totally made me remember the first time I met each of my kids.
nice. ragamuffin makes me smile. a lot. at the most random parts of the day. word.
I can't wait to create our “meet” video.
Happy Thanksgiving Day and Happy Losiah Day.
2 years?!?! wow.
still makes me cry everytime!
Our Gotcha Day is Sat. Same things on my heart. Thanks for giving voice.
wow. so touching.
Wow bro that brought a tear to my eye.
My wife and I plan on adopting at some point in our life!
So dope!!!!
That made me cry. How beautiful.
can't watch it again. makes me cry every time.
I am officially in love with your family–what a great video and memory!
This is awesome! Thanks for sharing such a special letter. My wife and the birth mothers of our children are the most self-less people I know as well! What a tribute!
So beautiful! There are so many ways to make a family!