Happy Birthday Losiah!!!
I’ll never forget seeing this picture on my Blackberry for the first time.
Your mom and I pulled the car over and cried.
You were so perfect.
You see 3 Years ago today you came screaming into this world.
But the thing is…I wasn’t there.
I have no idea what I was doing at the moment.
Probably something irreverent and unnecessary.
I wonder if your Korean dad was stressed.
Probably not. You were his 12th.
He was a fisherman you know?
I suck at fishing.
I’m actually scared of worms.
Sorry.
So here’s the deal.
You turn 3 today.
That means you are supposed to be done with your tantrums and crap.
OK?
No more of mommy calling me at work and saying…”I’m done with your son”
No more crapping on the floor.
No more screaming under the crack in your door… “DAAAAADDDDYYYYY!!!!”
It’s time to grow up and be 3.
Deal?
Cool.
Oh.
And remember.
Your Korean mom.
It’s not that she did not want you.
I promise you son.
It was because God created you for us.
Seanna needed someone to protect.
Sohaila needed someone to dress up.
Mom needed to know that it’s not just me. All men are like this.
And me.
Well I just needed to be reminded how big God is.
You see.
You, Me. We are straight up identical.
From the radius of our heads to the way we laugh.
It’s all the same.
So I finally figured out you were mine from jump street.
You just got cooked in another oven.
I thank God everyday for you son.
And I will continue to intentionally father you until the day I die.
I love you
Daddy
RAIN IT DOWN
so Sweet!!!
He is
That was beautiful… And so is he.
Thanks. He is amazing.
That is SO precious!
No fair makin' all the mama's cry!
Beautiful.
I'm crying too.
game.
what he said!
ftw
Beautiful post, you capture so much of what it means to be a Dad!
Thanks Kell
I'm not supposed to cry at work!!
Sorry.
Love this! Beautiful post. What a great kid you've got!!
Thanks chica!!!
<3
Back atcha.
Awesome.
But I have to be the 1st to ask — you crapped on the floor when you were 3, too?
ok, I am not tearing up or crying but heaving weeping!! As the mother of two adopted sons, I empathize. WOW, what an amazing journey we are all on in this short life…GOD is good. Thanks for the cry.
You're welcome. Thank for joining in the journey of adoption.
yes, this is beauty
Thanks courtney
Brought to tears…this coming from a couple struggling to be parents…b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l. story.
I'll pray for you.
beautifully said, carlos!
Thanks brandi!!!
wow…i totally want to be your kid!
Better yet thanks for expanding my view of my two boys!
I'll adopt you
happy birthday to your little man… born in God's heart for you.
Thanks ang.
Wow. I am crying and speechless. Dang it, I don't even know you & your family! I wish, as an adopted child nearly 52 years ago, that my mom or dad had written or sad anything like that in my life. Reading your precious words shows how much you unconditionally love that little boy. No self-centeredness, nothing but fatherly love. You never cease to surprise me with these little glimpses into that marshmallow center you have covered by a gruff, in-your-face exterior! What a lucky child (and a lucky dad). Are his "little" accidents over? By no means of the imagination, but, it's memorable! What a great tribute to the One who brought us together.
Amen.
happy birthday losiah. i miss you
He misses you too
So precious. Thank you.
yw
Happy Birthday Losiah! We share the same special day. Cheers.
Happy Birthday!!!
What a precious face he has…and he's blessed to have a father who loves him so.
Thanks
i want one.
You can have him. And sorry I missed your chat.
that was such a sweet post….made me tear up and I don't even know you! Happy Birthday Losiah from Austin, Texas!
Of course I did not. Only when I was 2.
Beautiful. Awesome. Almost makes me want kids… almost. Not yet.
lol
What a great post! so beautiful Carlos! And happy birthday Losiah
Awww.
I won't mention the four-year-old birthday party I went to last week. It would spoil the moment and your wonderfully naive hopes about how three-year-olds act.
you should have changed the name of this post to "'Bring the tissues"
HA
"It was because God created you for us."…what a perfect way to put it ….absolutely true. Parenting has so many proud moments …enjoy the ride!
this post is FIRE! i share your feelings. Adoption is a DIFFERENT kind of love. Thank God for our girls, but our boys make us better.
Simply precious.
Love it!! Adoption is the gospel in flesh!! So good
That was SO cool to read… thanks for sharing!
i got choked up at a concert a couple of weeks ago introducing my oldest son to one of my clients…he was like, hey man, i understand i cry during sports movies…i was "What?! You too!"
Happy Birthday lil Los!
Thanks for sharing…….
Touching.
Dude that is just plain cool!
amen
wow…that moved me…simple but profound…you are certainly fulfilling your mission of leading…eh…encouraging a “movement of authenticity”…i’m a better person today, a better daddy, after reading this post.
sincere thanks loswhit.
wow…that moved me…simple but profound…you are certainly fulfilling your mission of leading…eh…encouraging a "movement of authenticity"…i'm a better person today, a better daddy, after reading this post.
sincere thanks loswhit.
being a dad is the best thing ever. Keep up the good work!
thanks… I just cried in my local coffee shop, wow this is awkward. Blink matt, just keep blinking.
Beautiful!!! He's so lucky to have a loving family.
But I hate to tell you, for my boys 3 made 2 look like a walk in the park. Hang on tight!!!
What a beautiful post. Happy Birthday to your son.
Very cool! I can't wait until my boys are home….
Los, my daughter is just over 8-months-old. She too was "cooked in another oven." I connected w/every single word you posted. Right through the heart. We have a tremendous relationship w/our birthmother and continue to minister to her regularly (and she to us). We thank God for her and the precious gift she gave us. Give Losiah a big hug from the Panters. We may never meet, but we care. After all, we're all adopted.
los, and yet again you reaffirm WHY i love your heart…you speak from it. thanks for remind me of that awesome journey. for showing me a small glimpse of agape love. well done my friend.
My Wife, Kathy, says he's so precious.
Me, I say, pretty cool
Wow.
Congratulations Carlos and Happy Birthday Losiah. That's a fantastic story that only you can share the way that you do. Appreciate you being real.
such a wonderfully written post. just beautiful
Wow, no tears here, but I laughed my butt off! Only because I have a "just turned 3 year old" girl. The phone calls from mom, no more crapping on the floor, screaming under the door….oh my gosh, that was hilarious cause it's SO true! My favorite read today:) Happy Birthday to your little guy!!
Love it! Feel the same way about my two – God MEANT them for me.
Ver sweet and full of love
hi los. your little one is so precious! thanks for sharing your life and stories! being a Holt adoptee as well, reading/watching Losiah's story is awesome! this post is truly touching. the love and meanings behind your words are huge! the change you have brought to his life will run deep and he will truly understand that one day! (i get so excited about adoptions!)
happy birthday little los!
Nice dude… deep. love it
This is beautiful. Growing up with a father who provided not guided and raising two boys on my own. I ache for a man who will love my boys this way. Who will kiss them goodnight and say I love you. Who will come home before midnight, before 8 so he can say goodnight. They deserve that!
Wow. That brought me to instant tears. It moved me in a way I can't even really explain. It's like I could feel your words deep in my heart. One of the BEST and most beautifully touching blog posts I have EVER read to date.
as a birthmom your post today totally touched my heart, I have always felt like you, that my daughter was never mine, rather she belonged with her parents and God allowed me the priviledge of growing her until birth. Thanks for letting me see it from the other side. May God bless you as you have me.
Inspired. Challenged. Encouraged. Blessed.
As a fellow adoptive parent of an almost 5 year old (april 24!) and going back to China for our son later this summer- I loved this! THANK YOU for sharing your soul and heart with us and your son and honoring his birth parents and his forever family! You nailed it when you said that your son was meant for your family. There's not a day that goes by when I think the same thing about my daughter. We had to go half way around the world- to China- to get our daughter and bring her into our family. God knew we were meant for each other. we could not have birthed a more "perfect" child for our family. Can't wait to see what happens with Zach when he joins us later this year!
Wow.