Sweet Jesus Christ My Sanity
Sanity is an illusion.
We are all mad.
Really we are.
Some of us just admit it.
Last night I led (barely, as I was on the verge of tears singing it) Charlie Hall’s song, Mystery at Buckhead Church.
As someone who has struggled with depression and anxiety it hit close to home.
Knowing that there is nothing in this world that can bring me clarity and sanity besides the simple act of following closely behind my Master Jesus Christ.
That is it.
And when we follow closely enough to be covered by the dust off the path our Master is walking, we achieve true sanity.
Sweet Jesus Christ my sanity
Sweet Jesus Christ my clarity
Bread of heaven, broken for me
Cup of salvation held up to drink
Jesus, Mystery
Christ has died and
Christ is risen,
and Christ will come again
Celebrate his death and rising
Lift your eyes, proclaim his come
Celebrate his death and rising
Lift you eyes, lift your eyes
May you be covered by the dust of your master.
Los
RAIN IT DOWN
Thank you. It’s funny how God speaks to me around the web during this time when I sorely need it.
The greatest part, for me, is that we can’t follow closely enough. I don’t have to make it a religious contest to get close. Instead, it’s a contest to wave the white flag and ask for a savior. And I can actually win that contest.
Thanks for this post.
Oh, wow. I need this, right now.
Love Love Love that song.
Ohhhh chills…. and it’s not because I’m cold! Sometimes I feel like the dirt under my master’s feet. ;o) Thanks for your blogs, they always keep me thinking and ready to pursue more! U rock.
That songs has also touched me deeply. If I were to get a tattoo these words would me incorporated as a reminder that it’s Christ who gives me sanity and the clarity.
Sweet Jesus Christ my sanity
Sweet Jesus Christ my clarity
Thanks for bringing up that amazing song. I often need reminded when my brain is twisting in knots that only through Jesus can I have any semblance of sanity.
Never heard the song, but those words are music to my spirit. As someone that is currently struggling with anxiety and uber-stress…I thank you for this…Your blog always enlightens me.
I really like this. I have had the same issue at times in my life. That is a powerful sone.
As a single mom of two very boy boys, and some one who struggles with maintaining balance from being bipolar this post not only brought tears but reminded me of the only tx that will bring peace. Christ.
Thanks for this post!
Carlos, thank you for your honesty on your blog and on twitter. It’s nice to know I’m not the only person who has anxiety/depression bouts. I don’t feel so alone knowing someone I look up to has the same issues and it reminds me to turn to Jesus when my first thought is to often run away from everyone. You and your family are a great inspiration to me!
So how do we get as close as we can to our MAsters feet as we walk?
When I hear the phrase “May you be covered in the dust of your rabbi” i think about how dirty things get, how nasty you might look, but I also think about how following Jesus is not pretty and easy, it is messy, dirty, and filled with all kinds of struggles.
But, I would rather be a dirty ragamuffin than a clean and pretty looking pharisee.
When you were singing that last night I could tell the emotion!! Way to lead out of authenticity!
We gotta walk where He does and into the situations that He does. I think many people follow Jesus, but follow from a distance. I want to be so close to Jesus that he could turn to me, whisper in my ear and say…
Thanks so much for sharing this with us. It helps to hear that others share the same struggles.
Last night was the first time I had heard that song. It was a very cool moment, thanks for leading it.
wow… to hear you speak about anxiety and depression so honestly was a total gift for me today. As a bipolar worship leader, it’s beautiful to be led to Jesus by your authenticity. Thanks Carlos. A lot…
Praying for you Los.
Heavenly Father, please reach out right now and touch Carlos. Let him feel Your power and not his own. Give him strength to finish the day following in each and every one of Your footsteps. Touch the entire Whittaker Team, God. They are so desperately seeking and following You in every moment of life. Work through them to reach others and work through us Ragamuffins to reach them. May we all become who You dream for us to be. Father, I pray that you give them rest. Rest from the world, but rest from all the little things that pile up and become the sole source of stress. May all three little ones sleep all night and may Carlos and Heather receive life giving sleep blessed by you Father.
We praise you for who you are and gratefully fall at your feet to be covered by the dust of the Master.
In Jesus’ name,
Amen.
I’m losing my mind
And going hard after His
His thoughts are higher
http://ChristianHaiku.com – Isa 55:8-9, Rom 12:2, 1 Cor 2:16…
Hey Carlos, This song has been powerful song for my wife and I over these past few weeks. 3 weeks ago our 1st daughter was born and she had some trouble breathing after a week we had to go to NICU and she was put on a ventilator. She is doing great now and is growing like crazy but my daughter loves music, maybe because my wife and I have the ipod on all the time. I made a playlist for my baby girl, Madelyn, and for some reason I put that song on there even though I hadn’t really listened to it in a long time. I remember one time in the NICU we had some portable speakers and the ipod hooked up and the playlist playing and the some came on nice a quiet and my wife started to hum and as I listened my heart began to worship in the midst of pain as my wife hummed “Christ has died and Christ is Risen, Christ will come again.” My heart and mind found peace in the middle of the darkest moment in my life. Christ is everything we need and one day He is come back to make all things new. Thanks for the honesty and transparency on your blog may God give you the peace and the strength to live and love well.
Peace and Blessings
“May you be covered by the dust of your Master”…
What a mesmerizing thought…. I want to be close. I want to hear His breath. See His sweat. I want to listen as He pants for the breath He tries to catch as He wanders when His rest will come. I want to be so close to understand when His eyes look right, He’s about to go left”…
To be that close. That’s a thing this soul craves MOST.
He is close to the broken. He is their FULL. Fill us Dad.
There is one song that has gotten me through a lot of depression, and one song that actually brought me out of a spell of depression awhile back. The first is “See Me Through”, by International House of Prayer’s Tim Reihmerr (sp?). The second is “Desert Song” by Hillsong.
Read this and thought of another video I had watched this week. Good stuff, thought you might enjoy. it is the second one called healer http://www.kadence.tv/
Love what you are doing here. If I hadn’t told you before!