I Hate My Brain
There are few things I hate more than my brain.
I mean. I have never actually seen my brain.
I just know it exists behind my eyeballs and says really stupid things to me on a daily basis.
Lately this is what my brain has been telling me…
No one is going to buy your record…
No one is going to read your book…
Your kids are going to hate you for quitting your job…
Your wife is so tired of your game…
And then I remember…
I wrote these songs so I can worship God…
I’m writing my story because God is good…
My kids tell me 40 times a day how much they love me…
My wife and I are better than ever…
And at the end of the day…
I once again realize that sanity is a figment of all of our imaginations.
And so I trust in this…
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jer 29:11
What do you need to let that truth wash over tonight?
Los
RAIN IT DOWN
I was planning on waiting until someone I knew got the CD and Book so I could borrow it but now I kinda feel bad.
Seriously though, my father-in-law told me a long time ago that God takes care of those who do His business.
woah… totally needed to hear this right now. I woke up this morning from a super realistic dream where I was pregnant, only to find that it obviously wasn’t true, and then I cried. I’m not even in a relationship at the moment, yet one of the deepest desires of my heart is to have kids. While it was tough to realize that it isn’t my time (yet!!), it was as if God was confirming in my heart that he not only knows my deepest dreams, but that he has given them to me and that he loves me beyond what I can imagine. Unfortunately, my brain has been waging a war, telling me lies and making me doubt, but not anymore! Thanks for this Los!
i hate my brain too – sounds like our brains might have gone to the same school…
God is good – He gives our heart the strength to put the brain back with a humility check: God is one that matters not us…
I need to let the truth run over this idea that all the work I am doing now is going to be for nothing six months down the road and I will be back at having no job and no future.
Yes, sometimes i hate my brain and what it tells me, but what I hate the most is fear, fear that nothing is going to work out.
Oh my brain can play tricks on me all the time. That’s why I love that song Mystery by Charlie Hall that you introduced me to. It’s true that my so called ’sanity’ comes from Jesus Christ alone. With out him I don’t know how I would ever get through a single minute. He is everything. He is all.
Needed to hear that right now. Thanks. For what it’s worth, I’m buying your tunes the day they release – something I usually reserve for U2 and DMB.
lying awake right now because i can’t shake similar insecurities. good to know someone i look up to has the same problems…
that God DID bring my husband together for a reason and he Will Not allow the devil to ruin my marriage if I stay faithful in HIS power and listen for his still, small voice. although it is a disaster right now–praying God is working a miracle in the spiritual…
I need to be reminded that God loves me, that His love is unchanging and that nothing can separate me from His love. I often have to be reminded who it is that I am serving..I seek to please people instead of my heavenly Father..which only leads to frustration and let down when you don’t have approval…jeepers!
My brain says “Don’t pursue that gift you’ve been given. You’re not really very good at that anyway, God just wants you to think you are.” and “Don’t reach out of your comfort zone, you’ll lose the time you have with your kids.”
Praying for your Sanity to win out for one more day.
I hate that the Enemy uses my brain against me, against so many. Carlos, you unsheathed a priceless weapon in this battle of the heart: Truth! Holding tight to the Truth of our Lord and Savior’s love. Hold tight to the truth of the love of those God has placed around us in this life. The truth “runs over” the lies (thanks Kyle).
Carlos – Thanks for sharing at the NOC this week.
God Bless your work and suck the marrow out of your time in GA.
-K
Edit- “…work, and YOU suck the marrow”
Thanks Los,
I constantly have a tough time keeping my brain quiet in these situations… The enemy constantly uses that to beat me up… I might try to focus on something else tonight… A nice brew and my Taylor will go to work shortly…
That we’re doing the right thing moving into a smaller place and that it’s not his timing to buy a house.. even though my brain is saying otherwise…
Gosh, I have been having a fight with my brain, too this week. Thanks for saying out loud that your brain sucks too. I needed that. I just have to remember to run to my Strong Tower of Jesus and quit believing the lies the enemy plants in my head.
What a coincidence. My brain also tells me that I’m not going to buy your book or album.
Gosh, I feel the same way you do. Good for you for having faith in knowing deep down what you are doing is right, even if the world or your brain migh tell you it’s not or plants insecurities. You were led this way for a reason. It’s cool to sit back and see what God does with us when we let go of our plans. His are so much better! While I write that, I’m struggling with this right now…still praying and waiting for the right thing to do to become clear and cut off what my brain is telling me (and convience my husband too!)
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jer 29:11
dude. God led me to give my young neighbor a Bible about a year ago. I told him I thought Jer 29:11 was for him and read it to him.
After a trip to jail and a crazy life turn around he came over to my house yesterday and showed me his first HUGE tattoo – prayin’ hands and Jer 29:11.
Life with Jesus is fun.
Word!
Hold onto J29:11
I left a full-time job to pursue a dream and feel the same way. I know that God is in this but it’s still hard. Thank you
LOS this is REAL and this is TRUTH and those two things are unparalleled in this world so you keep chasing the good things and that’s all that that brain of yours will be able to know.
Of course with the proper dose of reminders.
Peace.
Thanks for saying this, Los. I’m in my senior year of college, starting my grad school applications and trying to keep my grades up, and my brain is chanting “you can’t DO this, fool!”
Where God guides, He will provide. Keep on going, and so will I.
It took addiction and recovery for me to regain that trust in myself. Addiction tries so hard to trick our mind into making the irrational rational. I have regained so much of myself back. I do it just one day at a time. I know that sounds cliche, but it’s true. I cannot look back & 2nd guess myself. I cannot look forward too far, because it isn’t here & now yet. I only have today. Start to finish. Listen to your heart, Los. I believe you are. It took a “sabbatical” from the tech stuff. A whole month you were gone. You came back with a plan. Heather & your kids love you & look to you for guidance. It is a team effort. God to you to your family. You did that. You included God. That makes all the difference. Stand your ground. You ARE doing it for the Glory of God.
Have my own daily fights with my brain, too…best answer I’ve found comes from Eldredge:
“The story of your life is the story of the long and brutal assault on your heart by the one who knows what you could be and fears it.”
Keep banging away.
This has been a difficult fight recently. I suppose anytime you try to leave behind the mediocre for something more it’s going to come about. I want to be a provider and a husband, but haunted by a history of settling for what was good enough and would get me by has left me without any idea how the Lord will use what I’m offering to bring this dream to pass. But I also realize I”m in no position to pursue until the Lord makes some changes to my circumstances. So wrestling with unempolyment, self employment, and a myriad of skills and joys that generally don’t pay, I’m waiting to see how God answers prayer. In the meantime, just trying to remain utterly faithful to what He’s given me to do right now, and praying the truth of Psalm 37:4 and Matthew 6:33.
Thanks for the encouragement of shared struggle!
Hard fight lately. My battle is what God has placed in my heart regarding ministry, a family, and where God’s leading me is a lie. I was just telling someone today that if someone asked me what God was doing in my life I’d have to say “It’s weird. He’s leading somewhere in small steps but I don’t know where.” And I have to follow Him and not believe what my brain is telling me which is “You’re crazy and you haven’t heard from God.”
remember it was adam and eve’s “fault” for our fall from grace because they were “thinking”! Oh how I wish at night i could shut off the thinking…even for a few hours to get some sleep! I have to remind myself that it is not the material things (that I can not give my kids) that are going to matter in human kinds’ race but the love, snuggles, and sharing God’s message that will sustain us even when all we eat are sandwiches (gotta love a good sandwich!). Prayin’ for us all to have peace of mind, peace of heart tonight!
amen
I used to think I had a brain and knew how to use it
Now, I wish it’d just shut the $@#* up.