Something doesn’t add up with that!

But HE lovingly pulls me away from my media crazed mind and lovingly fills me with His Word and grace!

Thanks for your honesty on this blog Carlos.

You rock dude.

Theresa
http://MarketPlanMinistry.com

Asking a church leader to help you approach another leader about a previously confessed area of sin in their life that has resurfaced and he blows you off

Desperately seeking authenticity and close male friendships but finding yourself more and more alone

Falling into sin because of that loneliness and hating the fact that you can’t seem to feel guilty over it even when you know that it’s a love of God that should cause a hatred of sin and not sin in itself

Because you feel so alone you turn to anyone who shows affection even when you know the mess it will cause.

Even though you feel very alone you’re tired of constantly reaching out and trying to connect with people. For once it’d be nice to have someone reach back to you.

In the midst of a dark night of the soul wondering if God even exists but you manage to encourage and edify people who walk into your life and firm up their faith even as you question your own.

No matter what you achieve in life you think it’s insignificant because you achieved it and it’s not enough so you need to keep driving on to achieve more

Let me just add, what caused me to stick with reading your blog (after finding it quite accidentally) is *authenticity* in our Jesus-loving lives being so graciously shared by your family. I seriously want to avoid the ‘ivory tower’ thing. I feel driven at this point in my life to BE authentic and seek it out as well.

I love our pastor (nearly half my age) who has a quality of humility and openness w/regard to being human. He/his wife lacks some life experience (also, his sounds charmed in some ways), but maybe those of us ‘more broken souls’ can fill that gap as we find our niche there.

THis leads me to my point…I do however, find it difficult as the others in ministry at my church being as authentic as the pastor (who has been there ~2yrs). I see people who get to know folks, draw them in and not stay in touch. I have not jumped on the bandwagon to take over an area that I felt God was not calling me to and a few are different around me as a result. I also see them as not sharing much of themselves and no one wants to dig too deeply.

I have not been a regular ‘member’ of a church til this point in my life (even tho raised in Christian home) and still getting acquainted with what to expect, embrace and all that goes along with church membership. This got really long, but then… I’m AM complicated LOL